Friday, February 5, 2010

I am tired (I can do this)

I know I can do this and I will.
But I need to say this.

I am so tired.

BD has been called out every week since New Years Day.
More than once a week on occasion.
In the past 7 days he has worked over 30 hours over time.

I am not well today and honestly, it was one of those rare days when I was sick enough to be counting the seconds until he got home.

The phone just rang.

You guessed it.

I know I have the ability to do this and do it well.
But I am so tired.
I don't feel good at all.
I need to sleep.
I need to allow myself to be sick so I can recover.



Let me take this moment please.









Okay.
I can do this.
I will do this.
This is fine and I am great at running point on the parenting front.
I can cover for his obligations tonight as I have a backup plan.
This is what I signed up for and I am so very capable of doing this.

Deep breath.
And... go.

6 comments:

mrs. fuzz said...

ditto.

Lynne said...

You CAN do this. You're superwoman. The bat phone rings and you stand by your man as he risks his life. You take care of his children (who happen to be your own :)) And you do it with perfection. You are an inspiration. If I can do it HALF as well as you do, I will be happy. This is only a short period in your life. Other times maybe be harder, but most will be easier.


If you need a break, a hug, talk, ANYTHING, call me.

MONICA-LnP said...

You can do it! you can do it!
hang in there

Rebecca said...

I can totally relate - You can do it!
Grace sister, grace!!

KD said...

Oh, I know exactly this... so exactly. in fact was pondering a blog post in the similar vein....

Rebecca said...

Hi stopping by to say HI. Hope all is wall with the pregnancy. Been thinking of you. I'm semi back to the blog world.
Cheers!